I want the kind of love that endures, and uplifts. I want the stuff legends are made of. I cannot get that kind of love by wishing for it or simply daydreaming about it. I have to be intentional and committed in my steps and actions. I can't just pray it, I have to live it.
Love is a verb. Love is doing and being. Love requires movement. Love of self, of life, of everything on the planet and perhaps beyond. God loves me and there is noting I need to do but breathe. The other part of God's love is my call to love as God loves me. Intentionally. Without judgement, without conditions, without barriers. The delight and liberation is in the call to love. The delight is divine, being in God's presence. Love is being in God's presence. Loving everything puts me in God's presence.
There is a clarity about Love and the call to Love that is hard to articulate. This clarity calls me to be and do, rather than contemplate. I have moved beyond the love contemplative stage. Not because I am wise or all-knowing, but because I can see what love calls me to be and do. That's it.
God is speaking. I am listening.
Monday, May 20, 2013
Saturday, May 11, 2013
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY: Motherhood as Ministry...
Everything is becoming ministry in my life. Thinking this way allows me to fully hold the things dear as sacred... like marriage... friendships and motherhood.
I am a MOTHER, a mom, a Big Mama. When any child calls mommy I respond. That's just the deal. I accept it and I actually dig it on a lot of levels. There are days when I feel supremely equipped, and then there are days when I am overwhelmed and totally unprepared. But never do I ever consider quitting. Getting away, yes! Longer summer camp, Yes! Being their Mom, that's my lifetime commitment.
Every time I hear about abuse stories involving children my first thought is thank God my children are safe with me. I know where they are and they are well cared for. I don't dwell on what their life stories could have been like had we not adopted them. I like to believe that God put them where they needed to be... to save my life.
Motherhood as ministry is not some nice sentiment, it is about understanding the power and responsibility I have for raising socially conscious, kind, smart and loving people. It is knowing that all that I have I give to them for their betterment and growth. Being a mother is being fearless. It is going against all kinds of odds to ensure my kids get what they need. I am a village builder, a bread-winner, chief bottle washer. And more than anything I love it to my core.
Oh yes, I am excited about them flying the nest and creating the life of their dreams as I did for myself. I will not be the mother that will clip their wings to keep them close. I want them to bounce around the world and make friends across continents. The world is truly theirs and I want them to fall in love in it.
Motherhood as ministry is a calling of the highest order. A sacred call that many answer. The call is different for each person. Some are called to be the vessels, others the nurturers, others the lesson, and still others to be the safe haven and sometimes one may be called to be it all. I know what my call was and is ... to be a safe haven.
I believe I am. I am a safe have for my children. That is my ministry.
Happy Mother's Day!
I am a MOTHER, a mom, a Big Mama. When any child calls mommy I respond. That's just the deal. I accept it and I actually dig it on a lot of levels. There are days when I feel supremely equipped, and then there are days when I am overwhelmed and totally unprepared. But never do I ever consider quitting. Getting away, yes! Longer summer camp, Yes! Being their Mom, that's my lifetime commitment.
Every time I hear about abuse stories involving children my first thought is thank God my children are safe with me. I know where they are and they are well cared for. I don't dwell on what their life stories could have been like had we not adopted them. I like to believe that God put them where they needed to be... to save my life.
Motherhood as ministry is not some nice sentiment, it is about understanding the power and responsibility I have for raising socially conscious, kind, smart and loving people. It is knowing that all that I have I give to them for their betterment and growth. Being a mother is being fearless. It is going against all kinds of odds to ensure my kids get what they need. I am a village builder, a bread-winner, chief bottle washer. And more than anything I love it to my core.
Oh yes, I am excited about them flying the nest and creating the life of their dreams as I did for myself. I will not be the mother that will clip their wings to keep them close. I want them to bounce around the world and make friends across continents. The world is truly theirs and I want them to fall in love in it.
Motherhood as ministry is a calling of the highest order. A sacred call that many answer. The call is different for each person. Some are called to be the vessels, others the nurturers, others the lesson, and still others to be the safe haven and sometimes one may be called to be it all. I know what my call was and is ... to be a safe haven.
I believe I am. I am a safe have for my children. That is my ministry.
Happy Mother's Day!
Monday, May 6, 2013
The Body of My Dreams.... Yes, It's a Woman Crush Alright
Wendy Ida has my dream body. And I am going to work hard to create that for myself. She is my motivation. She is 61 years old. I am not even going to nail myself to the cross about how good she looks at that age as opposed how not so great I look at 50. I ain't never looked that good at any age. So this is my muse... my inspiration... my holy grail. No I don't want to be her. I am inspired by her fitness. I love the way her body looks. This is is what I am striving for.
Saturday, May 4, 2013
2 Days into being 50 and I am Feeling FABULOUS!
What a great start to kicking off 50! I am feeling pretty damn good!
I feel so youthful and spirited. I truly feel like the world is my pearl! I am a Queen!
Today I am celebrating with family and friends! Turning 50 is a big deal and I am glad I chose to celebrate with gusto!
I don't know about tomorrow... right now I am feeling very blessed, very rich and very happy.
Yes. Very HAPPY!
I feel so youthful and spirited. I truly feel like the world is my pearl! I am a Queen!
Today I am celebrating with family and friends! Turning 50 is a big deal and I am glad I chose to celebrate with gusto!
I don't know about tomorrow... right now I am feeling very blessed, very rich and very happy.
Yes. Very HAPPY!
Thursday, May 2, 2013
Monday, April 29, 2013
50? BRING IT!
The clock is on... it's been on for almost 50 years! Thursday I step into 50!
Full Grown 50! Ha ha ha!
I am not afraid of 50. Bring it bitches! Bring it! The best thing about 50 is that I am acutely aware of time. I relish the shit that I do and when I do shit I am totally in! Turning 50 cuts out half-stepping and bullshit. If you are 50 and you are struggling with NO, then you need to redo your 40's and get some balls.
I am not angry. I am not unhappy. I am not missing or wishing, or longing for anything.... OK except for more $$$$ but everyone does that except the Dali Lama perhaps. The point is, I am satisfied with me. That doesn't mean I have accomplished all my desires and goals. And it doesn't mean I don't have bigger dreams to chase. But as I chase and accomplish, I love the woman I am in this moment. I love this body that runs and works out and lifts weights. I love all the challenges and the way I am handling my life. There is no fear abut anything.
50? Bring It!
There is no anxiety. I love all my grey hair. I do not have any wrinkles... my skin remains flawless, my smile is pearly white radiant. This is the life. This is the body. This is the mindset. 50? BRING IT!
Full Grown 50! Ha ha ha!
I am not afraid of 50. Bring it bitches! Bring it! The best thing about 50 is that I am acutely aware of time. I relish the shit that I do and when I do shit I am totally in! Turning 50 cuts out half-stepping and bullshit. If you are 50 and you are struggling with NO, then you need to redo your 40's and get some balls.
I am not angry. I am not unhappy. I am not missing or wishing, or longing for anything.... OK except for more $$$$ but everyone does that except the Dali Lama perhaps. The point is, I am satisfied with me. That doesn't mean I have accomplished all my desires and goals. And it doesn't mean I don't have bigger dreams to chase. But as I chase and accomplish, I love the woman I am in this moment. I love this body that runs and works out and lifts weights. I love all the challenges and the way I am handling my life. There is no fear abut anything.
50? Bring It!
There is no anxiety. I love all my grey hair. I do not have any wrinkles... my skin remains flawless, my smile is pearly white radiant. This is the life. This is the body. This is the mindset. 50? BRING IT!
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Battle Or Embrace?
Am I wise enough to know which one to battle and which one to embrace? The enemy (anything that separates you from God--- bad attitude, depression, feeling lack, negative thoughts and words, negative people). The enemy of all your dreams and passions and creativity and love only has the power you allow it... you give it. The only way to discern the difference is to be still and really pay attention to your life.
At 50 I see things so much clearer. I am moving toward embracing things that really matter to me. Things that fuel my passions. Things that bring me peace and love.
This is conscious thinking. Being very present in my life.
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